Getting Real: Love vs. Doubt

Today, I went to see an epic performance called The Thorn. If you haven’t seen it and you live near Colorado Springs, this is one production you do not want to miss. It is a beautiful depiction of the life, death, and resurrection of our Savior, complete with angels, demons, and Doubting Thomas for a humorous narrator. Well worth the $30.

The performance has left me in an emotional heap. I am still crying as I consider the price that was paid for my freedom. I am physically tired from crying and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I have been struggling as I prepare to go on the Race, doubts filling my mind and lies telling me that I can’t do it. There are so many reasons I can give as to why I shouldn’t go. The stress it has caused has begun to show in my physical body. So the question resounds, do I trust my Father? Do I trust that His grace really is sufficient? Can I believe that He will uphold my body, soul, and spirit? Do I have faith that Jesus is who He says He is, particularly in my personal life?

Then I saw Him on a cross.

See, doubts crowd my mind and fill me with worry, but then I reflect on the cross and all I feel is love. And love, well love conquers all fear. When I fix my eyes on the Author, the Pioneer, the Perfector, the Finisher of my faith, there is no sacrifice to large, no doubt too worrysome, no fear that cannot be conquered. When I look into the eyes of the One who gave it all for me, all the doubt and worry fades into memory.

There are a lot of reasons to be afraid. I feel insecure. Maybe you feel afraid due to the political issues, or the economy, or your family problems, or your marital status. We can find all sorts of reasons why we should be scared. But, greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world. There is nothing greater than the One who walked into the jaws of death and conquered it. Jesus trampled on death for you, so you and I could be free!

There is a song I listen to over and over. Actually, there’s several songs I listen to like that. This song, however, has one particular verse that gets to me every time I hear it. It says, “I hear Your still voice calling but how could You love me now? And I’d rip my world down to follow the sound, could You love me now, are You out there?”

“I’d rip my world down to follow the sound.” Have you heard Jesus’ voice calling? It is truly the most lovely sound in all of the universe. He ripped down every wall that ever separated us from Him so violently that no wall could ever be built to keep Him from us again. No wall on His end that is. But let me tell you, I’ll rip my world down to follow Jesus, no doubt about it. Why? Because He is worth it all.


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