I’m going to be really honest right now: I don’t want to hear about Jesus anymore.
I am really tired of hearing about what this God who lives inside me is like. We talk about Jesus like He’s up in the clouds somewhere and we are just learning His ways so we can be better people with better lives. We talk about Him like He’s not in the room. I’m done with that talk. In fact, I’m tired of all the talking. I’d like to believe that Jesus died for more than good theology. I’d like to believe that His prayer that we be one with Him means more than knowing a lot about Him.
I want to see Jesus, to know Him. I don’t want you to tell me how good He is, I want you to show me. I don’t want to talk about His love, I want to experience His love. The same is true of myself. I don’t want to tell you about Jesus, I want to show Him to you. Andrew didn’t tell his brother, Peter, about Jesus. He showed him Jesus and his life was changed forever. It wasn’t enough for Jesus to tell us about the Kingdom, He showed us, and the world was never the same.
This is a generation that is not satisfied with words. Articulate words with no proof of their truth are just words. We are tired of words. This is a generation of people looking for a truth we can see. We are looking for Jesus, the one who laid hands on the sick, cast out demons, loved adulteresses, hung out with tax collectors, walked on water, fed the hungry, clothed the naked, walked in authority.
I am just as guilty of being the one that talks a big game but doesn’t show it.
I’m sorry that I have misrepresented Jesus, living a pathetic and powerless life that lacks love.
This is not the Jesus I know. This is not the God within me. He is not a victim. He is not powerless. I am not a victim. I am not powerless. I will not live that way anymore.
I will no longer eat from the tree of the knowledge of good. Knowing what is good is not enough. I have been called to eat from the tree of life. Oh, how different these trees are! Eating from the tree of life brings life that reproduces life! Springs of living water welling up within me and pouring into others, producing springs within them. Eating from the tree of knowledge of good and evil only produces the lie that I can do this without Jesus. I can know good and be fine. I can know a lot of verses in the Bible and say I am living a “good Christian life.”
I don’t want to talk about Jesus to you, I want you to see Him when you see me. When I speak, I want you to hear Him. I don’t want to hear about Jesus from you. I want to see Him when I see you, to hear Him when I hear you.
I challenge you to ask God what this looks like for you. I know I am doing that right now. I’m sorry I can’t give you the formula for this. I don’t think there is one. I think that the key is following Jesus, wherever He leads. Listening and obeying the Spirit. Jesus only did and said what He SAW and HEARD the Father doing. In other words, studying lots of stuff and knowing a bunch of information was not the key to Jesus’ ministry, but intimacy with the Father. The key to being Jesus on earth, a “little Christ,” is intimacy with Daddy God.